These two dates are the most important date of my trip. The first day is to do the traditional thing and honors my grandfather. It wasn’t that hard which I mean the emotional part.. but it’s still heavy to endure the day. It began around 15.00 .. family and friends were gathering at our house. After a while we were driven to the place where we can do the stuffs. This is the first time that I’ve experienced the Chinese funeral. Family needs to dress in white, and wearing a headband with a red dot. My grandfather’s sons and daughters need to dress white too and also some traditional reed clothes. Friends can come to the funeral to condole us and give the last words to my grandfather. It finished at 21.30..we were driven to home to rest.

The next day will be the cremation.. and it began at 8.00. We were gathering again.. and driven to the same place where we were yesterday. This day is to finished the traditional and really say the last words to my grandfather. This is the hardest part.. Even when I’m blogging now, I still feel the sadness in me. It reminds me how it was.. emotional heavy. This is like the other funerals that I’ve experienced. Walking around my grandfather to share the last words with him. Family and friends were crying.. even I was crying in my heart. I just couldn’t let my tears come out.. don’t know why. That wasn’t the hardest part.. it was right before we sent my grandfather to the cremation. We have a host that tells us what to do.. the part that the host tell us that the oldest son (my father) needs to come forward.. and lay his hand on a desk or table to say.. “father, rest in peace”..  On that moment I was broken.. Somehow my father’s feeling were connected to me.. his voice was struggling to say those words.. My tears came out.. I saw my father suffering.. too hard to tell. *snif*

After the cremation we were driven to a restaurant to eat.. it calls in Chinese “hero dining” or something like that. It’s necessary because it means that we have said goodbye. Now it’s the time to live on.

A few hours after the hero dining.. I can feel the family is relieved.. no more stress.. it’s a good ending and a new beginning of the next chapter. 

Today I’m leaving to Hong Kong. After what yesterday happened I wasn’t in the mood to travel. But I’ve to, so I stood up early to finish the things off. Yesterday I’ve also booked my train ticket to Brussel Zuid/Midi train station. Even there it went wrong, it was an online booking and you can print your own train ticket. After I’ve complete the payment the site got stuck. I didn’t received my train ticket through the mail, but the payment is done. So I’ve called the bastards to get it done.

I left 30min earlier to make sure I won’t be late for the departure, luckily I was right. The usual NS train was late.. in the end I was just in time to catch my train. Such a hurry.. And my suitcase is acting weird, think the balance is not right. When I’m walking the suitcase swing from the left to right. So it was better not to drag but hold in your hands to walk.

I was fully prepared for the long trip, got enough TVB series on my netbook. And also enough battery for my iphone hehe.. Right now I’m sitting in the train to blog this. In the train I was whatsapping and suddenly I didn’t received any message.. on that moment I know I was in Belgium. I wasn’t paying attention at all hehe..

After a while when I arrived at Schiphol, it’s already late. Need to check in and I didn’t have dinner.. So I’ve dropped the luggage and went to Burger King to have a fast “dinner”. And my girlfriend came to Schiphol to say goodbye… =) *like*

The trip to Hong Kong went well,.. the only thing I can tell you is that I was sitting next to two Thais guys. I think they were gays.. because they were “poking” each other and smiling lol.. But one thing! They didn’t touch me! =P In case that you were thinking haha.. and I know some of you will think like that..! =P 

On the airplane I’ve watch a few TVB series.. so i have something to kill time.. not only eating and sleeping..  ^Oo^ After the arrival my parents went to pick me up and gave me the octopus card. 

It's been a while since I've updated my blog.. I should do more blogging.. really, it's quite nice to shout all the things you can't easily say it. Thinking about it, when I feel unhappy.. I want to share it. This time, I feel some things are coming closer. The closer it is, the more unhappier I will be. Life a simple thing, you can live very complicated.. but life is life. If something happend, we "the human being" can't do much about it. You can only watch it happen, powerless feeling will crawling in your veins. The situation will throw you into the reality, you wish you are dreaming. After al this, when things are settled down.. it will only be a memory. People need to live on.. so please enjoy every moment! 

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down

Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie